Bestguy???

Bestguy......that's the word na nkkpgpagulo sa isip ko lalo n ngayon! cguro your wondering who's my BESTGUY,actually sbi nya n he's my bestfriend 4ever & he trit me as his sister (ouch!!!!), sa una mhrap iaccept but Im still trying to accept that fact kht sobrang hirap.......=(. Nlaman na kasi niya n I have feelings for him kya e2 ko ngayon paranoid...na bk may mgbgo!

Everyday, Im still waiting for his call or text...yun n kasi nksanayan ko! gnun pa rin nman siya skin wlang ngbgo s knya actually ako p nga ang ngbgo khit ayoko gwin yun! basta everytime n mgttxt cya or mkkausap ko cya lgi ko ipingdidiinan yung word n ''kapatid''....!atleast ngayon alm ko n kung ano at cno ako sa kanya....but Im still hoping na my chance p between us!



Why Can't It Be???

You came along, unexpectedlyI was doing fine in my little world
Oh baby please don't get me wrong'
Cause I'm not complainingBut you see, you got my mind spinning
REFRAIN:
Why can't it be
Why can't it be the two of us
Why can't we be lovers,Only friends
You came alongAt a wrong place, at a wrong time
Or was it me
Baby I dream of you every minute
You're in my dreams
You're always in it
That's the only place I know
Where you could be mine
And I'm yours but onlyTill I wake up
REFRAIN:
Why can't it be
Why can't it be the two of us
Why can't we be lovers
Only friends
You came along
At a wrong place, at a wrong time
You came along
At a wrong place, at a wrong time
Or was it me.......

Pretender

I dread being by myself lately. Sobrang kinatatakutan ko yun at kung pwede lang ang lagi na lang akong may kasama or kasama sa isang group. I really don't want to be by myself muna. Dahil kapag mag-isa ako hindi ko mapigilan ang hindi malungkot dahil sa mga pinagdadaanan ko ngayon.

Every single day I have to put up a happy face and pretend that nothing is wrong with me. Trying to act like I am happy. When deep inside I really wanted to just lock myself in my room & cry as much as I can.

Malungkot na naman kasi ako.

Mabuti na lang I have a job and I have my friends. Kapag nasa office ako siyempre di ko naman pwedeng ipakita na may problema ako so atleast nakaka-cope up ako & I survive every day without crying my heart out.

Yun nga lang kapag nasa bahay na ako at wala pa ang aking best friend na ka-share ko sa inuupahan namin ay nag-uumpisa na naman akong malungkot.

Sigh!

Story of A Young Filipina Woman – The Fighter In Me

Writing is always a remedy for me specially when I am going thru some tough time.

Life was never easy for me. I have encountered so many hardships in my and at a very young age too. So many problems I have faced about…family, financial, relationships and yes…love.

I have loved and lost far too many times that even my friends are wondering how I still manage to keep on falling in love. Could it be that I have a knack for falling for the wrong the guy? Is it because I am always destined to get hurt in the end? (More twisted & frustrating stories about that in my later entries…)

I highly doubt that. I mean even if I have been hurt too many times I am still hopeful and besides…I am still in my early twenties and too young to be bitter in love & in life.

I’m sure that most of us if not all have experienced the pain of losing the one they love most…but try watching your boyfriend die in your arms because of a terminal illness. Yes I did. And it was one of the darkest days of my life. Naranasan mo na bang umiyak na parang wala nang luhang lalabas pa sa mga mata mo? I did.

Then one relationship after another…everything was a failure.

I have a job that is not so glamorous…but hey, it takes care of the bills. I am one of those unfortunate ones who misses living with their fathers because they had to work overseas.

Just a brief description of my life and how it is for me. And you are probably wondering why I am writing all about it here…simply just to share to whoever stumbles into my blog (especially those who are going through some tough time right now) that life really can be so hard (cruel even) sometimes…but there is still hope.

At least that is what I believe.

God has blessed me with a wonderful family and friends who always supports me ano pa man ang pagdaanan ko sa buhay. That being said alone proves that I believe God is with me thru it all and that He has a purpose for me.

My name is Chel Tolentino, I am a Filipina and this is my story.

With this short story (about my life) I am hoping to reach others who are going thru some rough time like me now. Maybe in some way I will be able to give them a glimmer of hope that there is always a brighter day waiting for us. And I believe that if I post this as an entry to Ms. Jenette Toral’s Filipina Blog Writing Contest I will be able to reach more people with my story.

God bless!

Ano Ba Talaga 'Tol?!

Have you ever felt so confused in your life that you almost don’t know what to do about it or how to deal with it?

Well ayan ang nararamdaman ko ngayon.

I’ve never felt so confused in my entire life. And it is all because of 1 guy.

There’s this guy kasi na although thru sms ko lang nakilala eh we eventually meet and became good friends.

But as time goes by, medyo I started having feelings na towards him and at first I thought I could live with it without being confused or without wanting to know if he ever feel the same way towards me.

But the problem is…now I realized that I can’t.

And this is my song for us…

What Do We Mean To Each Other
by Sergio Mendes

I'd rather know if you had turned the page
If you go faster than I do
Suddenly it's not so clear just what I am to you
Am I friend, am I lover, do we still need each other
When you touch me, when you touch me baby I can tell
What do we mean to each other, am I friend, am I lover is it over now
If this is it then why bother tell me where do we take it from here
What do we mean to each other am I friend ,am I lover, is it over now
Do you love me still or do you just mean well
I can see clearly how im hurting you
Every breath gives you a way
All we go on separate roads has gone in the way.
Am I friend, am I lover, do we still need each other
When you hold me, when you hold me baby I can tell
What do we mean to each other, am I friend, am I lover is it over now
If this is it then why bother tell me where do we take it from here
What do we mean to each other am I friend ,am I lover, is it over now
Do you love me still or do you just mean well
Time became a poison looking slowly on my home
Screwing all the memories, Is it tearing us apart
When you touch me, when you touch me baby I can tell
What do we mean to each other, am I friend, am I lover is it over now
If this is it then why bother tell me where do we take it from here
What do we mean to each other am I friend ,am I lover, is it over now
Do you love me still or do you just mean well
What do we mean to each other, am I friend, am I lover is it over now
If this is it then why bother tell me where do we take it from here
What do we mean to each other am I friend ,am I lover, is it over now
Do you love me still or do you just mean well
Do you love me still or do you just mean well