Ang Boyfriend kong di ''daw'' Tao!!!!

Hay.....di ko alam kung paano ko sisimulan blog na to.....iba talaga power ni krung,hahahaha!

Ok,syempre sabihin ko muna ang napaka-unique nyang pangalan......sino pa eh di si ZOSIMO PALACIO BULALAQUE JR.,diba san pa kayo makarinig ng ganyang name,hehehe! Mas kilala sya sa tawag na ZOSI or JR. tawag ko nman sa kanya eh ''MAHAL''. Para skin hindi lang name nya ang unique actually pati ung attitude nya....sabi ko nga nahanap ko na katapat ko sa kanya! mabait naman sya, kaya lang pag nagalit galit talaga....nagiging isa lang ang kilay nya...hahaha! lahat yata ng ugali ng guy na hanap ko eh wala s kanya...puro kabaligtaran! But inspite of that attitude sobrang mahal na mahal ko yung mokong na to', hindi ko alam kung bakit pero sabi nga LOVE IS UNEXPLAINABLE,BLIND,MYSTERIOUS & SACRIFICE.....Kaya kahit anong sitwasyon nangyari smin kami pa rin.

Pano ko cya nakilala??? dahil ky BESTGUY,kung nbasa nyo yung nauna kong mga blog (wow parang ang dami nga...hehehe),makikilala nyo sya.childhood friend cla then ka-work na rin before...Nagmit kmi nun ni bestguy sa SM Marilao,watched kmi ng movie tpos ayun may kasama syang guy,nung tym na pinakilala cya skin ni bestguy para ko naground nung mag shakehands kmi kya ayun tumilampon yung fone ko kaya wasak...tanggal talaga yung housing,keypad at battery! grabe talaga yun kakahiya pa, then ng nasa loob na kmi ng sinehan super ingay nya at daldal...lasing kasi,hehehe! Ayun getting to know na kami gang sa ask nia ko kung gf daw ba ko ni bestguy, that tym sabi ko sa sarili ko wish ko lang gf nya ko...hehehehe!after namin magwatched ng movie nagpunta kmi sa house ng friend ko, habang nasa byahe kami wala cya ginawa kundi magtelebabad sa fone nya knowing na kausap pala ni sozi gf nya na warfreak!hahaha! Then after ng lakad na yun dumaan pa ang 3months bgo cya magparamdam ulit....knuha daw nya # ko ky bestguy,kya ayun text galore na kami,niyaya nya ko lumabas...syempre di mawawala ang inuman,punta kmi sa 1 bar sa Bocaue...super sharing namn ako ng prob. Sa knya bout ky bestguy...after nun after namin malasing di ko nmalayan nakayakap na cya skin & then he kissed me....ayun kmi na pla,biruin mo yun in 1nyt naging kmi...ewan di ko din alam kung bakit ganun kabilis! sabi nga nia na love at first sight daw cya, di din naman ako naniniwala sa long courtship eh.

Dati, hindi ko alam kung thankful ba ako at pinakilala skin ng bestguy ko si sozi.kasi nga parang sya ung karma ko before...talagang lahat na yata ng sitwasyon na di ko naexperience dati eh cya nagpa experienced skin ngayon. Ngayon 4 months & 16 days na kami, para smin parang almost 1yr. na kmi. ewan ko ba dami na kasi nangyari eh at nagbago.....dami nya kasi problema sa buhay eh, pero pinakaproblema ko sa kanya yung pagiging chickboy nya...dami nyang girls, may pangmalayo, pangmalapit at pang txt lang....at syempre pangseryoso! At di ko alam kung san ako nakabatch sa mga yan..hehehe! Basta,ngayon alam ko ako nalang mahal nya...di naman kasi mawawala yung mga textmate, pag pinansin ko pa away lang...kaya pabayaan nalang,karma na nya yun!!! Chickboy at lasenggero,yan ang ugali nya before....pero ngayon malaki na pinagbago nya! After 3months nagbago din cya....umiinom pa rin cya ngayon pero di n maxado....3 case nalang a week...hehehe! atleast nabawasan na! Masaya na tlaga ako at sinusunod na nya ko...sweet na din cya ngayon at my desiplina na cya! Namit na rin nmin both families, ok nman accept kmi both, sarap tlaga ng feeling....atleast ngayon kahit sobrang dami problema nandyan cya kmi lgi for each other! Nakilala na rin cya ng friends & officemates ko. Hay...may 1 ko officemate parang nanay ko rin yun si kring, cya nagsabi na di dwaw tao bf ko. hahaha! selos lang yun! Pero ng mamit nya si sozi tao naman daw....ambisyosa noh!?

Mga trip nman namin....walang katapusang strolling sa mall at window shopping mi!kung san maisipang pumuntang mall! Shangrila, megamall, MOA, trinoma, SM makati, glorietta, at sa livingroom ni krung at jake sa greenbelt!tpos 3wiks na celebration ng bday nia....toma kmi sa bay boulevard sa MOA, sa papispoint.....na super galore ako sa pag-iyak, akalain mo yun inaway pa ko! Pero after an hour ok na kmi ulit.hehehe!

So, pano gang dito muna.......TAO NAMAN CYA DB? hehehehe!


TAO ANG BOYFRIEND KO!!!!!!

Bestguy???

Bestguy......that's the word na nkkpgpagulo sa isip ko lalo n ngayon! cguro your wondering who's my BESTGUY,actually sbi nya n he's my bestfriend 4ever & he trit me as his sister (ouch!!!!), sa una mhrap iaccept but Im still trying to accept that fact kht sobrang hirap.......=(. Nlaman na kasi niya n I have feelings for him kya e2 ko ngayon paranoid...na bk may mgbgo!

Everyday, Im still waiting for his call or text...yun n kasi nksanayan ko! gnun pa rin nman siya skin wlang ngbgo s knya actually ako p nga ang ngbgo khit ayoko gwin yun! basta everytime n mgttxt cya or mkkausap ko cya lgi ko ipingdidiinan yung word n ''kapatid''....!atleast ngayon alm ko n kung ano at cno ako sa kanya....but Im still hoping na my chance p between us!



Why Can't It Be???

You came along, unexpectedlyI was doing fine in my little world
Oh baby please don't get me wrong'
Cause I'm not complainingBut you see, you got my mind spinning
REFRAIN:
Why can't it be
Why can't it be the two of us
Why can't we be lovers,Only friends
You came alongAt a wrong place, at a wrong time
Or was it me
Baby I dream of you every minute
You're in my dreams
You're always in it
That's the only place I know
Where you could be mine
And I'm yours but onlyTill I wake up
REFRAIN:
Why can't it be
Why can't it be the two of us
Why can't we be lovers
Only friends
You came along
At a wrong place, at a wrong time
You came along
At a wrong place, at a wrong time
Or was it me.......

Pretender

I dread being by myself lately. Sobrang kinatatakutan ko yun at kung pwede lang ang lagi na lang akong may kasama or kasama sa isang group. I really don't want to be by myself muna. Dahil kapag mag-isa ako hindi ko mapigilan ang hindi malungkot dahil sa mga pinagdadaanan ko ngayon.

Every single day I have to put up a happy face and pretend that nothing is wrong with me. Trying to act like I am happy. When deep inside I really wanted to just lock myself in my room & cry as much as I can.

Malungkot na naman kasi ako.

Mabuti na lang I have a job and I have my friends. Kapag nasa office ako siyempre di ko naman pwedeng ipakita na may problema ako so atleast nakaka-cope up ako & I survive every day without crying my heart out.

Yun nga lang kapag nasa bahay na ako at wala pa ang aking best friend na ka-share ko sa inuupahan namin ay nag-uumpisa na naman akong malungkot.

Sigh!

Story of A Young Filipina Woman – The Fighter In Me

Writing is always a remedy for me specially when I am going thru some tough time.

Life was never easy for me. I have encountered so many hardships in my and at a very young age too. So many problems I have faced about…family, financial, relationships and yes…love.

I have loved and lost far too many times that even my friends are wondering how I still manage to keep on falling in love. Could it be that I have a knack for falling for the wrong the guy? Is it because I am always destined to get hurt in the end? (More twisted & frustrating stories about that in my later entries…)

I highly doubt that. I mean even if I have been hurt too many times I am still hopeful and besides…I am still in my early twenties and too young to be bitter in love & in life.

I’m sure that most of us if not all have experienced the pain of losing the one they love most…but try watching your boyfriend die in your arms because of a terminal illness. Yes I did. And it was one of the darkest days of my life. Naranasan mo na bang umiyak na parang wala nang luhang lalabas pa sa mga mata mo? I did.

Then one relationship after another…everything was a failure.

I have a job that is not so glamorous…but hey, it takes care of the bills. I am one of those unfortunate ones who misses living with their fathers because they had to work overseas.

Just a brief description of my life and how it is for me. And you are probably wondering why I am writing all about it here…simply just to share to whoever stumbles into my blog (especially those who are going through some tough time right now) that life really can be so hard (cruel even) sometimes…but there is still hope.

At least that is what I believe.

God has blessed me with a wonderful family and friends who always supports me ano pa man ang pagdaanan ko sa buhay. That being said alone proves that I believe God is with me thru it all and that He has a purpose for me.

My name is Chel Tolentino, I am a Filipina and this is my story.

With this short story (about my life) I am hoping to reach others who are going thru some rough time like me now. Maybe in some way I will be able to give them a glimmer of hope that there is always a brighter day waiting for us. And I believe that if I post this as an entry to Ms. Jenette Toral’s Filipina Blog Writing Contest I will be able to reach more people with my story.

God bless!

Ano Ba Talaga 'Tol?!

Have you ever felt so confused in your life that you almost don’t know what to do about it or how to deal with it?

Well ayan ang nararamdaman ko ngayon.

I’ve never felt so confused in my entire life. And it is all because of 1 guy.

There’s this guy kasi na although thru sms ko lang nakilala eh we eventually meet and became good friends.

But as time goes by, medyo I started having feelings na towards him and at first I thought I could live with it without being confused or without wanting to know if he ever feel the same way towards me.

But the problem is…now I realized that I can’t.

And this is my song for us…

What Do We Mean To Each Other
by Sergio Mendes

I'd rather know if you had turned the page
If you go faster than I do
Suddenly it's not so clear just what I am to you
Am I friend, am I lover, do we still need each other
When you touch me, when you touch me baby I can tell
What do we mean to each other, am I friend, am I lover is it over now
If this is it then why bother tell me where do we take it from here
What do we mean to each other am I friend ,am I lover, is it over now
Do you love me still or do you just mean well
I can see clearly how im hurting you
Every breath gives you a way
All we go on separate roads has gone in the way.
Am I friend, am I lover, do we still need each other
When you hold me, when you hold me baby I can tell
What do we mean to each other, am I friend, am I lover is it over now
If this is it then why bother tell me where do we take it from here
What do we mean to each other am I friend ,am I lover, is it over now
Do you love me still or do you just mean well
Time became a poison looking slowly on my home
Screwing all the memories, Is it tearing us apart
When you touch me, when you touch me baby I can tell
What do we mean to each other, am I friend, am I lover is it over now
If this is it then why bother tell me where do we take it from here
What do we mean to each other am I friend ,am I lover, is it over now
Do you love me still or do you just mean well
What do we mean to each other, am I friend, am I lover is it over now
If this is it then why bother tell me where do we take it from here
What do we mean to each other am I friend ,am I lover, is it over now
Do you love me still or do you just mean well
Do you love me still or do you just mean well